One egg

The words echo in my ears

One egg

Didn’t fertilise

Another failed round

The stages of grief hit me quickly

Then they seem to pass

But the invisible hand continues to squeeze

Maybe all my organs don’t work

My lungs don’t want to breathe

My heart feels like a rock

And these lady parts are not doing their job

One egg

Didn’t fertilise

Try again next time

But I had told myself this was the time

Come May I was going to have a baby

But I guess June is equally fine

It’s weeks before anything can be done

So now I float about this limbo

This cycle complete

But much time until the next

One egg

Didn’t fertilise

How is it that I mourn

You were only in my imagination

But boy did we have some fun

Your future was bright

Our family complete

But now we must wait for next time

Maybe this will be the time

All I need is that

One egg.