Obstacles!

~ Obstacles ~

I'm not afraid to feel

I'm not afraid to live,

but what I see in the world

is not my will,

and I can't take away

the ending of what is to come.

IT doesn't matter how many 'good' books

I read or how little TV I watch

nothing that’s going on around me

is a true reflection of who I was

trying to turn out to be,

So here I sit

my spirit torn apart

because of interference in which I have to wait to see subside

Fighting really hard

with what societies rules

have placed before me

as an obstacle to which

I must abide? If I'm to survive,

So I'm left with damage

that to look at me cannot be seen,

with few choices as to where

in my life, I can go,

I can listen to all the music

and feel the pain inside

the sound of the noise

turns me blue,

but there is still nothing

love can do,

to undo the history

overdue telling itself

and fix the time and

that hurt station

thats' landed me

where I am;

sitting alone at a table again,

drinking coffee till the caffeine gives me the shakes

pondering the love of the human race and my place

as I cry over where my daughters future is going to end up being,

knowing in the end

'though' for now I'm still alive

having to say good-bye

far too many years too soon

leaving her future in the hands of God

and what she has yet still to learn,

and what she'll settle on as her

point of view with respect to life

and the whole person

she turns out to be.

No matter where we are

forever her Mum

knowing how the love in our relationship is true

and through that nothing can separate you from me!

I love you daughter

Pray for everyone as we all fight our ways through life

and the burden of all life’s obstacles,

with this insurance

that it's nice to know

were not alone!