Now you tell me your Gay

Now you tell me your Gay

I ask for love

not riches or praise

just a glance that says

I matter

You come home

but never really come home

your eyes flick past me

like I’m noise

I lay beside you

but you turn the other way

I reach out

your silence slams back

Did you mean it

when you said forever

or did you say it

because you thought you should

Was I ever wanted

or just a safe bet

someone to tick a box

while your heart stayed locked

I cooked

I smiled

I stayed soft

you grew hard

I begged in small ways

touches, looks, words

you gave me

shrugs and cold shoulders

Why did you choose me

to make me feel

less than

invisible

Was it love once

or did I imagine it all

because I needed

something to believe in

Why did you marry me

to treat me

like this

I thought the men in the pub

were mates

the all-night card games

just noise and beer

You said

don’t wait up

so I didn’t

I trusted you

I folded your shirts

scraped plates alone

listened for your key

like a fool

Now it all makes sense

the late nights

the cold looks

the way you’d flinch

when I touched your hand

You’re leaving me

for a man

Just like that

five years gone

and all I get

is a quiet

I’m sorry

like it’s nothing

You say you never meant to hurt me

but you did

every day

with your lies

your distance

your fake smiles

and all those games

that weren’t just cards

It’s over

five years married

Tom

now you tell me

you’re gay

Please Note this is just a made up poem not part of my life or anyone I Know 😊🌼🌼🌼