Nothing Will Ever Be As Good As This

We stare the future in the eye, leaving the present

to be sorted and wrapped in satiny bonds of promise

with every hour dissolving like snowflakes.

It circles me, it circles you, wrapping us all in our own chain of seconds, seconds… can’t you see? Fucking robots. All of us-

We remain slaves to the clock while the stars spin - there is no later

Later is now. All this heat

roiling inside me

screaming for release

even if it makes me look desperate

even if I reek of insecurity.

It leaves me no choice but to explode in admissions you’re going to hate

I am wide open and streaming

and I vow to never stop till it no longer hurts to see the world fall apart

But you don’t hate me yet. You stand there,

smiling at my eternal wanderings

I want you to rend me

erase me with your thumbprints

then piece me

back together again.

Take my hand... I'm your oar... Row, row, row your boat, gently..

merrily merrily merrily merrily... Life is but a dream.

We’ll make memories down Lake Arrowhead,

Mexico and all the shiny places on Earth,

and I won’t be left with glimpses from summers ago:

Your nails always pink and chipped

Your cheap rings and heart-shaped earrings,

cooking eggs every goddamn morning

But I never got tired of eggs

The hot nights

Fucking you in your kitchen

You know nothing will ever be as good as this

Nothing will be so

Damn

Good