nothing even matters

Nothing even matters

it's all just a game

and we're selling our souls

for this money and fame.

we're giving away

our love and our light

because somebody told us

that to live is to fight.

~~~

We're blinding ourselves

to the signs that we're shown

and we work ourselves tired

just to ask for a loan.

we work so damn hard

that there's no room for joy

and we play with our hearts

like replaceable toys.

~~

We scoff at our feelings

and brush them aside

without understanding

to fit in is to hide.

we put on our ties

and straighten our hair

then punish ourselves

when we think it's unfair.

~~

We measure success

by the weight of our pockets

and cram all that we love

into small metal lockets.

we settle for things

and people and lives

that look good on paper

but are so unaligned.

~~

We reach for the vices

that silence the thoughts

that numb the sensations

that make us feel lost.

we attach ourselves

to all we think that we know

the only voice that we trust

comes from our egos.

~~

We're constantly racing

the hands of the clock

so badly wanting to beat it

we hold it down with a lock.

we're addicted to

checking each box on the list

but the whole time we are

we're clenching out fists.

~~

We're trained to believe

that fear is prescribed

and if we don't take it

we cannot survive.

nothing even matters

it's time we find truth

if we have nothing to gain

then we have nothing to lose.