Not Ready to Say GoodBye

Stop all the noise, I am turning off my phone,

I want to pretend to be anyone else, make me a clone.

Just give me a piano song, a distraction, or a clash of thunder

Anything will do just so that I do not have to ponder.

Let the clouds cultivate over my head

In hopes that the voices will stop screaming "now they're both dead!",

So I turn around as I put a smile on my face and fight the tears,

Can't stop visualizing precious moments of happiness from past years.

She was more than my God Mother - she was my friend, my hero, my sanctuary

And he was my laughter, our Jester - looked out for us and made us feel extraordinary

Both of them were like a light in the dark, giving off warmth and unconditional love

Both of them wanted me to achieve all that I dreamt of.

But it hurts too much to think of them - close the door, turn off the lights, let me be !!

Please just turn off the sun and let the moon in....that is all I need

Pour something ... anything into this void so I don't have to cry

My heart aches and I know in time I will heal but today I am not ready to say goodbye