Not Present

Five deep inhales and counting,

Continuously gazing at the clock,

Delayed and the minutes are stalling,

Wanting to move from this roadblock,

Impatiently waiting for the seconds to start moving,

Seeking doors of opportunity and ready to knock,

Sleepless nights while tossing and turning,

Can't figure out where my life is going,

Introspection into my depression,

More questions and lack of direction,

Overthinking and exhausted,

Wondering what lies ahead,

Bored with idle lungs and receptors fried,

Two grams later and still not satisfied,

Another gram to see how high I can climb,

Can't tell which strains I'm smoking anymore,

Every hit brings some relief over time,

But this disconnection I can't ignore,

Looking for signs and synchronicities,

Contemplating past actions that brought me here,

Emotional limbo and anxieties,

Ready for this stuck feeling to disappear

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