Not Little Girl

I am not a little girl anymore

I am not the same girl you once knew

I am not the same...

maybe it was you that changed me

maybe from pain you caused me finally to realize how glad I am never to speak to you ever again. But I actually secretly love for you to call or text me. tell me that you love and miss me. But your with that other girl and my heart is wanting to break. it's hanging on a thread. silence from both ends. neither of us actually tried enough cause  you stopped texting me and giving me just excuse after excuse. And you went to a fair with her while we still dated but it was ok you guys just met up. you cancelled our plans cause of the rain. weeks got shorter and hour got longer wanting what we had. yet only thing I got was pain. I got depressed...at night it was scary cause my mind would go to thoughts and thoughts went to suicide and suicide went to permanent solution to temporarily problems.