Next Time

We did a lot of fighting and we couldn't make it better, you started dipping sticks to numb the pain and you was getting wetter.

Everyday you was accusing me of things you thought you knew, but the problem with the ups and downs, it was not just me and you.

The pain we left the kids in might never go away, but being by my families side is why i choose to stay.

I tried to be your queen cause I saw you as my king, everyday comments getting worse, you getting better at getting mean.

how many times i den left you before, just to come running back and knocking at your door.

Every time i went away i said id never come back, and then there i go again for your birthday, "lets smoke a sack".

when you said you hated me and you couldn't trust the friend in me, it had already been years that i thought we was enemies.

for 10 days i left and went to cincinnatti, i didnt know it would be the last time alive id see my daddy.

you said dont cry tears for the general, that everything would be okay as if i didnt already know.

some things that you said to me, was my proof of your hate for me, it wasnt til i left that i first found the realest me. and thanks to all the gifts that disability has given me, a chance to raise my own seeds, all three.

i always say ill never speak to you again, then im steady running back hoping that we can be friends.

now i realize this life is full of ups and downs, so im jumping off this ride to have a sense of steady ground.

so now today i say goodbye to the only man that had control of my life it was always in his hands, he was giving the chance to love me or leave me, he chose to stay my master when he could have chose to free me.

he me and the kids are living separately and hes still playing games with whats left with my mentally.

so now today i say goodbye to my only love, if you have any questions please refer them to the man above.

i got a chance to see what this love thing was all about, but to do it all again would be my lives biggest doubt.