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the thoughts between episodes of fictious crime shows (based on a old journal entry) | Somewhere Between Here and There
...and yet
why do i keep clicking the button
and dive into the rabbit hole
that is humanity turning into animals
no
worse than animals
because animals merely rely on instinct
and do not truly mean harm
***
[i click through the scenes in my head
replaying and the ones that hit home
start blending into my life]
what could I be searching for?
***
a sort intro to psych 101
an understanding
into what would turn a man
into the monster under the bed
how can there still be any minuscule bit of love inside
after what you did
you tore me apart
without laying a finger on me
***
maybe i hope i can find theories
for why
why you loved them the way you did
and was different with me
or how could two people
exist in one body
my hero
and
the monster
***
because i can't ask you
even if you were still alive
because you would have just lied to me again
or worse
you would have told me the truth
(my ears would have heard lies)
stabbing me
over
and
over
and the scar tissue would have hurt worse
than the two edged truth
piercing my patchwork heart....
***
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"Do It Again" the track that would ultimately open the Beach Boys final album on Capitol Records which was released on February 10th 1969 had originally been released as a single in August of 1968. The track was the first of many post-Pet Sounds era throwbacks to the early Beach Boys sound which would become continually more cliched and eventually lead the Beach Boys to the level of self-parody they would eventually succumb to in the 1980s while their closest contemporaries The Beatles nearing the end of their run in 1969 would go on to be viewed as the most influential band of all time. However, the song itself is not bad on its surface, and it opens with a futuristic sounding (for 1969) drumbeat captured by then-Beach Boys engineer Stephen Desper using tape delays on the drums performed by Dennis Wilson and John Guerin. The song has been re-recorded numerous times over the years on various Beach Boys-related projects most notably the 2011 re-recording at Capitol studios featuring the five surviving Beach Boys at the time backed instrumentally by various members of both the Brian Wilson Band and Mike Loves touring "Beach Boys" to promote the then upcoming Beach Boys 50th Anniversary reunion tour in 2012. The hammering and power drill sound at the end of the song was an excerpt from a track called "Workshop" that was to be a part of the uncompleted "SMiLE" album.
By Sean Callaghan6 days ago in Beat
Comments (3)
Wooohooooo congratulations on your win! 🎉💖🎊🎉💖🎊
I like how this poem was centered around crime shows and how getting so deeply involved would cause the scenes to blend into your real life. Are humans, humans or animals? What would cause one to become like the monster under our beds... I like the thought process going on here. It's very relatable. Oh my, the last part was a bit of a surprise. It always scares me too, how a hero and a monster could exist in one body. Now that the person has passed, you have expressed the complex thoughts around the two versions of them. This was deeply gripping for a poem and very well presented. Sending lots of hugs and healing your way 🤗❤️
Interesting take on the prompt for the challenge. I find myself in this predicament often, binge watching true crime and wondering what sort of switch flipped for these monsters to do what they do. Good luck in the challenge!