Neverland

Reminiscing on my early years

Like the other day

Encaging my rage

For all the things I can't contain

I medicated my violent ways

By meditating on 72 sacred names

If only I could evade my fate

Liquidate my pain

Still strapped, bullets still encased

Uzi rumbled all the same

But I did not engage

I found another way

This page was my escape

I won't make the same mistakes

Cuz Elijah is at the gates

I was cursed

About to burst

But with the tables I turned

I was able to learn

A way with words

I got lost in the verse

I miss my simple roots

Took poverty as a virtue

And still I never succumbed

To substance abuse

Even with the rifts in my youth

If only they knew

The efforts I went to

To conceal these wounds

Born and raised

With one hand tied around my back

Embracing my pain

In the life that I once had

Dealt a bad hand

And still I ain't never see

The lines in the sand

Never gave up the dreams I have

I was an addict for havoc

And a junky for madness

I romanced sadness

And I buried the hatchet

But it kept growing back

I reminisce on the west side of the tracks

And I loved every moment

Perhaps I'm a little broken

And these ryhmes are all that's left

But I can't miss what I never had

Im just trapped in Neverland

I learned from my mistakes

Turned these ashes to roses

And grew em' in the shade

Turned straw to gold

Everyday I fought my thoughts

And always saw the hope

I wouldn't have it any other way

No stranger to struggle

I was a flower never watered

The danger made me humble

Even though I was troubled

Still I kept my composure

I ain't never stumble

Spittin to the rhythm of this rifle piston

I never listened

To the devil on my shoulder

I shoot for the stars, I got no limits

Living at the edge gave me comfort

I never faulted, it was magic

Take me to the place where there is no light

And I bet you I can find it

I love my working mother

And the hardship that held us together

Cuz there is a message in this bottle

And it says that things get better

And I know it made us stronger

I miss the laughs between the grief

Coming up from under

The uneasy peace in the streets

It was the simple things

That I thought would last forever