Learn to Flip a Negative to a Positive
How can you love yourself when you fill your soul with the opposite?
Poisoned your blood and let it shimmer in the sun
Only for your world to become undone.
Silent, deadly - stained by the demons whose plague ran rampant
Marred the hurt until they dragged you down past the sandpit.
They have it out for you! They want you gone!
But what does it matter when your hearts all wrong?
When you're the worst enemy and best friend
Telling factious lies one minute then the next your begging for mends?
There's no consistency to your love
Focus more on the inside and maybe you'll find your doves
But you'd rather scrape the pain and rewind it over again
Run through these circles till the broken record cuts you down to the drain.
There's nothing to explain when you're caught in the moment
Never cared enough to stay focused when the pain goes unspoken
You're never enough! You need to change! Why can you be normal?
How many shots did you take to drown out your senses
Numb to the world because your heart's in between cold fences
Learn to Flip a Negative to a Positive
I'd rather be the coldest man in the world
Then the porcelain staircase for dirty feet and littered jewels
Whose beauty forgotten in the search of youth by fools
Who admire the light till their greed transformed it to the netherworld
I'd rather be kind to myself and those I share my time with
Then the wolves who dress like sheep and invade your space
Only to swindle and scheme, letting your love be their case
For why hurting you was justice while your pain became the gift.
You are worthy! You are here for a purpose!
Should it all matter in the grand picture, a theme played at the grand piano
For your eyes only, for your ears only - the life prescribed to you
Can you feel the lyrics meshing in your soul for one more breakthrough
Collapsing barriers and crossing boundaries until you've reached the golden soprano
You need consistency in your heart
Not in the ways you treat others 'til you're none for the kindness of character
Or the ways you view others, claiming yourself as prey to a hungry predator
Consistency in your sense of self, the negative most depart
Have a little faith in yourself for a change! You may be the rainbow you've been missing!
Consistency in your heart must blossom in time
With gentle patience when everything ends in rhyme.
Learn to Flip a Negative to a Positive
About the Creator
Jelani Saeed
Hi! My name is Jelani Saeed. I'm a black queer writer specializing in Afrofuturism featuring black queer leads. Hope you enjoy my work! I write poetry and prose (original and fanfiction). I also have a website: dabblesofapisces.com

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