My Worst Day

I took too many pills that day, just poured them in my hand

I'm not asking you to care, nor to understand

I did not have a plan, I did not want to die

I just wanted an end that was more than getting by

I started with one pill then two, but then what can I say

I thought if I was going through, I should just go all the way

There was no noble purpose, no tragic reason why

There was no pain or sorrow I could use to justify

Just a step out of life, an escape from reality

A stupid selfish moment that almost ended me

So I say again, there was no reason why

I just wasn't strong enough to resist the urge to die

And now my mind's conflicted, my soul is split in two

I swear I did not want to die, I swear I did too

I refuse to remain this weak, I am strong enough to live

My soul must reunite as one, I have so much more to give

Peace and calm will win, my mind will heal in time

I do not want to die, I want to live and feel alive