My True Colors

Devoid of light, in the darkness, pressure building, while I lay asleep, I could feel myself rising, and there were fountains of colors waiting to burst outward, that I could no longer keep.

Arising I gazed into the redness of the dawn, and found myself feeling grounded, as if I had grown roots, diving deep into the lawn.

Struggling in the red morning light, I was anxious, I wanted to be safe, and to know everything would be all right.

Yet while the Sunlight shifted to orange later in the day, I found my base desires pulling me every which way. Driven by physical, emotional, and sexual need, I searched desperately for fulfillment, and for others on which to feed.

So many times my selfish appetites were destructive, my own heart I did betray, all of the pearls of my soul, and pieces of me, that I foolishly gave away.

Then my mood slowly seemed to mellow, my eyes squinted, as my vision turned from orange to yellow. Left disappointed by my desire for physical lusts, like a sour lemon, offered in a dessert of dust. Slowly one step at time, I found the internal fire within, to allow real healing, to truly begin.

Doing many years of soul work, largely through efforts unnoticed, and mortally unseen, I finally found a way to open my heart, as if walking into a pasture green. Now, finally my energy is beginning to flow , and my eyes open to truths, that were always present, but I never seemed to know.

Finally arriving after years, and years of making the same poor choices, my throat clearing, I was finally able to listen to the inner, and silence the outer voices.

Now I freely speak my truth to all of you ,and remain loyal to myself, true as the ocean blue.

Finally after 52 years, there is no longer a need to fight, and I see things clearly through a royal indigo, velvety light. Finally, I am aware now that there is no need to stay or to go, and that my spirit will gracefully move through the cosmos, with an eternal glow.

As I have grown, and moved nearer and nearer, walking a higher path, one that is right, I am reminded by everything around me, that all colors are present in the same divine sight.

Each facet of color of my life, among all the thousands of hues that my personality has allow me to be, I was never was only one, but it was still always the same me.

The divisions, and diversity within, can't possibly be the root of all sin , for all my colors are part of the same white light. And all have led me out of the darkness of night.

So let us embrace the diversity, within ourselves, as well as within others, as we each uniquely be, for we all come from the same source, and are all one, in divine unity.

WRA 5-15-21