My thoughts

I had to write this down before I forget what I was going to say

Just like yesterday when I felt it but I tried to push it away

I don’t know whether I like you to stay

I don’t know whether I’d rather you go away

It’s not that you don’t enter my thoughts each day

In fact, I think about you constantly everyday

Maybe that’s not a good thing to say

But it’s true, what do you want me to say?

I think about erasing your number

Maybe even blocking it to be safe

But then if I do I can’t see your name across my phone each day

Maybe I should do it anyway

Just in case

I don’t tell you how I truly feel

Just snips and bits like a movie reel

A preview to what I truly feel

But I honestly don’t think you care for real

It’s not like you text me back or call me and talk about it

So it’s really not a big deal

Although it kind of stings if you seat back and feel

But I know just by what I see your silence says a big deal

I walk in the building looking for a chance to see if you will notice me

Then I quickly stop and tell myself what’s in my head isn’t real

But how can it not if it feels this real

I guess I should stop here before the poem gets to real.