My Sunburst Girl

There is this girl I've known since grade 9 who has my heart and soul.

From the moment she met my eyes I knew one day she would be mine.

She stood over my desk on the second day of math class and turned my heart into a million sunbursts.

Even while she was fuming mad she was the most beautiful girl I had ever met.

From that moment forward we became best friends.

I never dared to speak my secret feelings to this sunburst girl.

I watched longingly from the sidelines as she fell for someone who was not me.

I listened to my heart break as she whispered sweet nothings to this 'not me'.

I wept into my pillow thinking about how id lost this sunburst girl.

My sunburst girl.

As the years went by we fought about this 'not me', and let him tear us apart.

The years went by and still, I longed for my sunburst girl.

I'd often dream of her smile and soft, sweet voice and wish she were here.

Then suddenly one day, she was back.

She once again was tearing through my life with her blazing smile.

All at once the feelings I had been holding back shot out with a force that stunned me.

My sweet sunburst girl was once again my best friend.

It was as if the time had not passed and we had been friends all along.

My sweet sunburst girl had finally escaped the terrible 'not me' who had tormented our lives for so long.

I finally took the chance to share my feelings and my sweet sunburst girl swatted them away like mere flies.

I vowed then to never let those feelings out again, and locked them away in a secret garden that only I could find.

We laughed the days away, my sweet sunburst girl and me.

I had forgotten how nice it felt to be liked so much.

I let my feelings grow in my secret garden for months until That Day.

The day started out like any other day.

We sent each other good morning messages like we always do.

But that day's messages felt different.

And then I got the message that stopped my heart and then burst it again.

The message read, 'I'm in love with you'.

And in that moment I saw how we'd end.

I saw our engagement.

I saw our wedding.

I saw our house.

I saw our kids.

I saw us grey and old swinging on our front porch.

I saw it all.

June 13th is not a day I will ever forget.

My entire life will be spent loving my sweet sunburst girl.

Always and Forever my sweet sunburst girl.