My Own Opposites

When my lightness appear, it will shine-

If it turned into darkness, it went heavy.

When my pure soul were lovely, it wouldn’t be forgotten.

If it turned so gray, it would be lost.

I have tried to carry with happiness everyday-

But, I carried lots of loss from sadness.

I have tried to carry with joy softly-

But, I carried lots of grief from heaviness.

I thought the connections I used to have were still there.

Does my feelings were not relatable like everyone?

I thought the good memories I used to have were still here.

Does my feelings were still okay in dark times?

It was just my normal shadows the whole time.

(Or) It was the dark shadows were following me since then?