My love affair with diabetes

My love affair with diabetes

High Blood Sugar:

I don’t know why we keep ended up together, but we do. Sometimes I call him late at night even when I know seeing him will lead to bad decisions. Other times I wake up in the middle of the night and I’m wrapped in his arms without even calling him to come over. He makes me feel safe, so I fall asleep quickly, but he’s demanding and needs constant reassurance he’s doing okay. He wakes me up in the middle of the night every 2 hours just to tell me he’s thinking about me and wants to know I still love him. He’s utterly exhausting. I tell myself I’m never talking again and can go weeks without seeing him and then out of nowhere he’s in my yard with a boombox and a dozen red roses begging me to let him inside and I do. He protects me from the other. I know when he is around she can’t find me.

Low Blood Sugar:

Low blood Sugar is different. She creeps through my life. I never know when she will come about. Sometimes I look up from a work party or a date and she’s just standing there. As soon as I see her I run to her. The few times I ignored her she punished me dearly afterwards. She doesn’t just need reassurance she needs my undivided attention. She’s dangerous and always wanting to go on adventures I do not. My life was sworn to her without my choosing. She captures my every thought and action I take. I try to strangle her, but I only felt my own throat closing in.