My Little Angel

From the second you were born -

My world has been terrifying.

Things I never worried about before now seem like monsters and mountains designed specifically to hurt you.

And never before could I fathom,

That the second year of hour life there would be so much more to fear.

Pandemics and murder hornets,

Riots and racism and quarantines.

Mosquitos that will kill an entire species that will deplete the food sources for the animals that keep our planet green.

And of course there is that man who wants nothing to do with you- except only to try and hurt me when threatening our lives did not make me cave.

The second year of your life has been then worst of mine - or so it would seem.

But little angel as much as I am terrified I am bound and determined to protect you.

You are my blessing and my strength.

You will never understand until you have a daughter of your own.

But it is the little things my little angel that drives that strength home.

When you pick a pretty “flower” (fondly known as evil weeds in our veggies) and give it to me.

When you bring me a book you want me to sit and read.

When you bounce on the trampoline and scream, “Whee!”

When you finger paint your belly instead of the canvas.

When you wake up from bad dreams and cling to me tight.

When you run up to me demanding smooches with your kissy little face.

When you pet our kittens with love and grace.

I don’t even care about that dress covered in stains. As long as your food was yummy and your tummy is full.

My little angel it’s all these little things that make mommy wake up to fight our battles every day.

When I am doing homework and my drive begins to fade - it’s like you know and you come stomping out the room and in your hands there’s something to play.

When you try mommy’s cooking and you make a happy face- and eat until you’re so full your tummy pops out of place.

The way you dive into watermelon, or dance and sing. You are always there exactly when I need you to be.

The way you always greet me with a hug and a kiss.

Our morning snuggles so cuddly and sweet.

The fact you’re not even two and you can count the toes on your feet.

Those ringlets of curls that bounce in your face.

And those angel blue eyes, wide with curiosity and brains.

These little things my little angel keeps me alive. Without you I don’t know how to survive.

Mommy is here and you’ve given her strength. From the first beat of your heart to the last of my days.

I will never lose hope I will never lose faith. And God as my witness I’ll do whatever it takes.

Mommy is gentle and soft, but deep within, a lioness roars.

Savage is my love for you and that will never change. I will protect you- from every fate.

Solemnly today I make this vow to you.

I will take any bullet and take any pain. I will fight to the death if that is my fate. So long as I breathe nothing will harm you.

Because you are my little angel and time is flying by.

You are so important, your heart as huge as the sky.

I will teach you to love and to keep your head High.

And I will show you how to properly fight for what is right.

You will be strong, you will be kind. And I will teach you how to survive.

Your heart will love. But your mind will be sharp.

I will teach you to beware the human snakes and sharks.

And you already will know nature’s majesty and the holy divine.

You are after all a little angel. And I’ll teach you to fly.

So through these dark waters and turbulent tides, your beautiful smile is all I need;

It reminds me that you’re still just a seed.

One day you’ll blossom and sprout anew.

As for the bad I pay no matter or mind.

Because my little angel you are the only thing that matters in life.