My Electric Secret

The sun paints your hair, glistening strands of gold

The ocean breeze plays your harp

I breathe what I see; my heart plays me unfairly

I resist taking your hand

Because I want to see you again

Tell me what was in your heart

When you suddenly held my arm so tightly

When you pulled the twigs from my hair

Every touch that seemed so unnecessary

Graced me like a butterfly landing

A stone heart learning gentleness.

Something you said keeps me from saying how I feel

I tie all the moments to my ankles

The moments you gift me with a sincere touch

I tie them to my ankles and drown myself in a dream

A dream that I can never have

So, I'll crush the head of the sin

Is it fear that keeps you with me? My fear mostly

And I'll keep telling myself it is a sin to keep you safe.

Can you still speak ill of a weed if it bears the sweetest fruit?

I can call my sadness happiness

if it bears the fruit of your happiness

I've heard the stories

Of how great suffering can lead to peace

And one no longer desires anything but to rest

I hope that I can tell you just how much

And still see you again.

I purposely lost myself in my fiction

My limbs are numb underneath the blankets

Your quiet mind always putting me in suspension

I hope I die, so that I can be free of the world

To finally be judged of my desires

That blood relations deem corrupt

When can I finally rest?

When I can I tell you I love you?