murder

i really let myself down

a teen mum

this is the life i begged for thinking this is all that was worth me settling down for

the boy who i barely knew didn’t care that in my stomach i was carrying his child his blood

i am still too ashamed to admit i was not strong enough to go through with it

now i am constantly reminded by posts saying that i am a murderer but the father just made a mistake and i should have been on the pill like this would never have happened if i was more prepared

no one knows that this was my dream up until it became a reality up until i came to the realisation that this is not where my life was meant to end

i am still on a search for finding more finding myself and i do not think that makes me a bad person for making rash decisions i am too young to stop my life right now

i woke up this morning and i realised i want more