Monster, Disease

So low but I'm alive

so gone that I want to disappear

staying wasted to hide what I feel.

Looking up to a teal sky

hoping for an answer but it has not come.

I wish I was doing this just

for fun.

Life is not what I wanted

I took everything for granted.

Oh god, what have I done?

I have become a monster,

I have become the disease.

Please, let me free, or

these demons will

take over for good.

I am drowning in my sorrow,

looks like I forgot how to swim.

Nothing good ever comes from

what I have done.