Momma

Momma I thought you love me

But really you neglected me

I thought you miss me

But really you forgot about me

All I want to see tears in your eyes

Love in your heart

To see pain that

You miss me growing up

My first girlfriend that I brought home

The black eye I got when I lost my first fight

Seeing me change from a little boy

To becoming a man

Nights when you can't sleep

When I didn’t call you to tell you that

I’m not coming home

Because I’m staying with my friends

I’m sorry I don’t think I’ll ever forgive You

For how I never got to hug you or kiss you

To tell you that I love you

To apologize for being bad at school

I’m writing this letter with tears in my eyes

Because I waited my whole life

To see you

To ask you about my Dad

How he’s like

What’s his name

Do I look like him

What can I do now

Realizing you won’t give me the answers

The ones I have been searching for my whole life

The answers I would die to know

I know I’m not a perfect person

And I know you not either

But I’m glad

You showed me

You don’t really love me

Maybe it been

A long time

So the emotions not there.

Anyways I’m done now

I did it without you

And I’ll keep doing it without you

I hope that my daughter will

Fill the holes you left in my heart.