Missing

Missing-blessings

Transient feelings towards me is normal, the bumper car collider, everybody leaves-in-sorrow. Bowed out before, any behaviour can be. Mirrored delay, the inconsistencies.

My role, infill, places others don’t spill into. I’m extra, not separate, the bitterness thrill. Deathbed stillness, surmounted yet shriller. At a pitch that just oscillates, vibration only, rumouring, rounding until.

Drumming percussive, successors parole. Condemn the lame, laying dead, lonely. Gossipy synopsis of that 1-trick-pony. RIP, blessed with the moniker of ‘owner’ ships lease. Hold.

Amputate, only. Cauterise my purest needs. Segregate anomaly. Sorting into categories. People say most wondrous words, then delete them, blurred in absurdity’s terminal policy.

Determinedly counter confusions expressed, then upon regression, the true confession said. Do I stop believing in what others say? Or just pinches, over shoulder thrown, moulting mammalian. Lost thread of friendship.

I’m as irrelevant as all, as pointless as a blunt stick, but with an ocular threat, my last trick. Blind by desire to live life, a little higher. Tempted by the lure of fate. That reassuring feed, post hate.

I’m condemned in unreasoning, the flute of her, piped reassurance. Exited air, a noted jar, a sidestepped curse, free riden hearse, it’s so perverse, how ethereal things are. Disappearing North Star.

In trust I am, revolt at hand. Commitments traits, lost, of late. Belligerent and full of please, kindness makes me weaker kneed. Hopes relationships will crumble. Rhubarb blush, in darkness coming.

Forced to show the rosy roster, campaign costal, contrite fostered. Need the ambush, taken pleasures, kernel custard, exoskeleton. Touch my core, intrepidly, I’ve marked the path. Cleared mines for free.

Trounced upon, the story told, in small rebellion, loves loose tether, whited-knuckle, inverted boldness shortened and deshevalled reveller. I struggle from her last choke-hold. Metaphorically, obviously. Nothing dents me physically, titanium constructions teamed.

Ambivalence of consequence, this catalysts repugnant menace.

Pogo till the spring is broken, in my left hand I’ll hold your token. Pretence that, that disc had meaning. Just another clandestine being.

Faltering and floundered farce. The free felled timber, Stifled yells. My voice in whisper, rotating gist. I love her entity. She will be missed. Much loss.

Buttered-up, then burnt in cinders. This encounter, nears extinction. Rarified and full of joy. That synthesis was a mere ploy. The gate is locked to our community, sadly lost in repudiation, much to my ignored irruption. Contrast dyes show up the cancer.

Left it overall, implosive, it’s not just me, but US, resolve it. Cursed for being, lessons learnt. Repulsive feelings, repugnant out-bursts. Called out, blamed, no spinster theory. Your lack of culpability, really? in shocks this monsters tremors are. A falsehood, lonely, fallow sorrow.

Today will just repeat tomorrow.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hearse

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cauterization