Mirror Mirror

Bruises, scars, a battered heart, yet

These stitches are gaping, almost breaking from the seams

All my life I’ve struggled with my identity

Never knowing if I was meant to be here or there

Or anywhere…

Who am I?

When I glanced in the mirror I saw a lost cause

A girl built of stone, a wall she fortified to hide her flaws

No one ever told me,

That it was like spraying perfume on a casket

You can’t just mask it.

So finally I stared, I stared into those crystal blue eyes

Tears welling up as they crowd a black abyss.

I see an ocean filled with dreams, and what is yet to be

Yet I cannot see what is happening to me.

But within the abyss I see my past.

I see my flaws that hold me back

When I look into the glass,

It’s shattered...I’m battered.

My eye’s take me back, I cannot escape my iniquities

I’m forced to stare into the eyes of my demon

I am my own worst enemy...

Take a look at my hands

Splintered, rough, cracked and dry.

The labor of my life embedded in a lie

The proof is in the prints I leave behind…

But on the other hand, there’s a line of blood dripping from a wound above,

A scream floods my ears, then suddenly it’s quiet.

My mind flashed to that day,

The day He took it all away

No more lies, nor tears

No more bloodshed, nor fears

I lit a pack of matches,

The demon I lived with crashes, burns to ashes

I raise my head up, maintaining eye contact with my reflection

My soul emerged from the now black epidermis.

I’m nervous

For the first time,

I saw myself through my own eyes,

I saw a beautiful human being.

Confidence, intelligence, an artisan.

I could touch the glass and hold her hand,

That’s when I heard her whisper,

“I love you.”

It’s amazing what you can feel,

When the dead skin peels.