Mentally Strong but Mentally Gone

It was hard but I can do it

dark days

I told myself everyday how to work through it

feeling that people were against me I was paranoid and lost control of myself

I didn't know if people wanted to help

I was by myself I would give up and stop trying but deep down inside I wanted to fight it

the sky's were blue

but I was still dark sided

it was the thoughts in my mind

praying to god to open a path

my emotions were sad

a mental illness that had impacted my life

took over by night

doing things to distract my brain

playing basketball

consistent shots

playing a game

mentally strong but mentally gone

I found a way

grounded myself and using my coping skills

doing the things that put a smile on my face

finding the light in bad situations

its about being patient

even when my mind was racing

my mind was gone

I couldn't process anything

mentally strong working the muscle

blood in my vessels

I care about my well being

I would tell myself that I will be fine

same for you

if your feeling what I am feeling

you're not alone

I am in your shoes

I had hope