Memory Lane

I made the greatest mistake one can make after healing;

I found our old messages and decided to take

A long-awaited trip down memory lane

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At first, it felt light

I could see the love we shared

I remembered the ease with which we talked

Of my day, you always cared

As I read on and on I fell back into the way being with you was

The way I once felt in those messages

How so simple,

How so easy

Loving you was

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I missed the way conversation flowed;

I missed your little jokes

I missed the witty banter;

I missed the way for what to say, you would always know

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I stumbled upon a time you wrote that you felt you didn’t deserve me

Funny, it was not an isolated event, but rather,

A common theme that came to be

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As I read and read

And scrolled and scrolled

There, before me, I could see

The entire layout of our story;

The ups and downs;

The highs and lows

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The times I came to really love you

And the times I really didn’t know

The times you bore to me parts of your soul

And the times I now know you were lying

The times I yearned for more of your love

And the times you’d left me crying

The times I’d make a jealous jab

And the times you’d come to your defence

The times I’d swear this was the final time

And the times the distance between us grew tense

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Reading while knowing just how we’d come to be,

Our exchanges simply made sense

And while I thought I’d missed the way we were,

I no longer think it’s true;

There’s no way I could miss a relationship in which

Of who you were at your core, I hadn’t a clue