lust fragment 3

I daydream you inside me.

Lana Del Rey bleeds in my ears,

.

congeals as I steal words between yr lips

with my swiping tongue:

.

those words who are what I always was

in my familiar way of being,

.

in a way that takes the gyration

of our bodies & transforms it—

.

We come together towards

this self portrait of two poets

.

as the American Boy, a self

portrait of this two as one

.

is us as you is

him as me is us

.

listening, is us talking

with our elbows

.

& toes & hip bones.

All of this, for you.

.

But then you are sudden-

ly so full bodied. You crawl

.

out of my mouth and my gums

tear inside their broken jaw.

.

Stern, your eyebrows flex to scream

you little fucker!

.

because somewhere in my love

I'd lost you. I'd stolen your humanity.

.

The music stops & in the sand I kneel

by your black denim, begging for a chance to keep it.

This poem was included in my book "I want you to feel ugly, too," which can be read on issuu.