Love poem

Love one Things have change now

But your still the one I feel safe with and I feel at home with.

You’ve let people influence you in away that negative they brought out the worse in you.

Don’t you see. We used to celebrate my birthday 🥳 we used to go out and do things with each other what happened?.I know babe I have my flaws and mishaps but What happened?.

I am at crossroad where I don’t know which way to turn anymore. I feel love and spark towards you is still there but something has changed what is it? Is the way u let ur hair down? Is the clothes you put on in the morning? To work. Is it the going to the bar and coming home angry ? Why so angry ? Why so sad and angry did someone hurt you? And hurt your soul.? What going on? Life is too short we made it this far to give up now. Is it the people you allow in your life to influence what we have? To bring us closer? What stopping that?. You are beautiful inside and out you make me happy and you make me mad. I’m not the one to control you but maybe u should rethink your people and only allow people who support who you are and are positive towards us together. I know I did my doing by being a bitch back in the day. And I caused some strain but we made it this far. It’s scary. And sometimes a part of me feels I’m losing you. I don’t know what happened but I sit and think about the times we shared before we had a son. And makes me happy and sad because it’s not like that anymore. Your energy is your friends and work and making an effort with our son. But what about us? I am hurting in silence sometimes I ask myself why I am here what’s my worth on this planet. Nobody wants me around. I feel awkward and alone standing against a wall. Like back at school. I never shared with you but I was bullied and I was alone. And now here we are 2021 with this pandemic and it’s making me fucked up. Live has meaning love is time you see that. It’s time to walk away from people around you I sense negative energy 😠 towards them onto you And I am over here trying to figure out my purpose on this earth beside being a mom. I have people who love me and I know u do. But I feel alone inside. But I don’t share my thoughts anymore because nobody gets it. Nobody understands my throughts my struggles my mishaps my flaws nobody gets it. So what the point in sharing if I am just going to be judge anyway.

Love I still love you the way you are I always will I care about you more than you know I want you wake up and understand not everybody in your life has your best interest and or motives. Your still the boy I met back at the yard sale of 2012. But something is different and has changed. I don’t know what maybe it’s life or just in my head. But we been through a lot and I would like to think your my soulmate.