“Lively step”

I have no one

And that’s what you wanted

You always forced me to stop talking to people over the years, always unwarranted

And forced me to stop talking to ones that I cared for

And my best friend too, and you mock my sentiments and my pain for feeling lonely now without them,

Don’t you?

And you hated me for talking to people who actually gave me kindness

Since you gave me none

And you destroyed my sense of worth

And flipped the script and played the victim as you are the abuser

And your family does it to me too,

Is that how you learned it?

I feel like I am your prisoner who gets the illusion of freedom

And yet my life is deteriorating

Yet you keep me close

And all my relationships are drowning

Because you pushed them deep down

Under those sinking, suffocating depths

And you kept me even lower

Beyond even the reach of those little bubbles of oxygen

It’s pitch black and thick nothingness here

You killed me as I keep my “lively” step.