Little Boys Don't Grow Up

I sit, reading the words I once wrote about you

And I'm realizing that they are just no longer true

And I have no idea what to do

Other than to find somebody new

I try to remember who you used to be

Or at least who you were around me

But him I can no longer see

Is this how things were meant to be?

I can't find the man you once were

Somewhere locked behind all those doors

Maybe my judgment was just poor

When I let you shove me onto the floor

And there I acted as your doormat

And I let you hit me with your bat

Until I lay on the floor flat

You wore my crown like a toy hat

Don't make promises you don't plan on keeping

Don't use words that have no meaning

Stop saying I'm overacting

Cuz I trusted you to not be play-acting

All I wanted was an apology

Or do you just not see all you've done to me?

I'm tired of being the one you leave

You ask why your words I no longer believe

Am I really the one to blame

For counting on you to bare your own name

Or is that just too tame

For someone who carries all of your 'shame'

I don't know what else I expected

You'd sit there, making me feel infected

Cuz I didn't fit your mold, so you injected

Your standards in me then called me rejected

I should have seen this coming

Little boys have a way of not growing

And I've just given up caring

That I can no longer stop your drooling

I'm tired of waiting here

For you to suddenly appear

And I'm giving in to this fear

That you will never again be near