Life

Life is a journey.

It is not always easy, and it is not always fair, but all in all still a journey.

Sometimes you feel like you are going nowhere. Like you are stuck in the same cycle, just repeating the same day over and over again.

Some days, it is too hard to even get out of bed. Too hard to move, too hard to breathe. It feels like the whole world is sitting on your chest pressuring you to be better and do better; but how can you do better when you feel as if you were not made for this world? How can you see the light at the end of the tunnel if it just feels like you are digging downwards instead of upwards?

People always say that the only person that is stopping you is you; in some ways that’s true. You are the one telling yourself that this is how it must be, that you can not and will not change. You are the one telling yourself that you are not enough for the world you are in. It is you telling yourself that you are not good enough for the people around you. It is you telling yourself that you need to be quiet because people won’t like you if you are loud and if they see the real you.

However, you would never tell yourself these things if the people around you didn't make you feel this way. You would never tell yourself that you will not change if the people around you did not make you feel as though you can not. You would never tell yourself that you are not enough for this world and the people around you if they didn't exclude you from everything. You would never tell yourself that you need to be quiet if the people around you didn’t always talk over you, louder than you.

As much as you want to fit in with people, as much as you want to belong to someone, if this is how the people around you make you feel, then find better people to surround yourself with. As much as it is going to be hard and as much as you don’t want to, you need to. You owe it to yourself to surround yourself with people who love you for who you are, and once you have those people that love you for you, you too will love yourself for who are.

As much as I want to fit in with people, as much I want to belong to someone, I owe it to myself to find better people, I owe it to myself to love me for who I am.