Life

I wonder at times, how do we survive in this current life?

With so much going on everywhere.

We all go through so much in life.

We smile and laugh, but deep inside, there's something making us sad and angry.

Stressful life has been causing my health to deteriorate. I've been losing weight drastically.

I lost my appetite. I lost my smile and laughter.

It's suffocating to keep falling sick.

I have done everything I could but nothing just seems to go the way I want.

Work has been the hardest as I am not fit to be working long hours or I'll get terrible headache and back pain.

I have low-blood pressure so I can't get myself stressed out or overwork.

I can work but you know how long hours can be really tiring especially for those who are not able to stand or sit for too long.

Infact, I don't know the limits to overwork.

I can sit down for hours and stand up getting terrible headache and it'll go on throughout the day.

Or I can walk around and suddenly get body aches and need to lay down throughout the day.

Either way I'll end up falling sick badly.

I can't sleep well either.

I keep waking up every 30mins or sometimes in just a short nap.

So that is causing me to always feel tired.

I'm also a light sleeper.

I can wake up at the lightest sound.

Also the reason why I can't sleep well.

Is there a solution for this?

If I manage to get a long rest, I'll wake up with terrible headache too.

I feel really sad.

I don't go shopping nor I have many friends to meet or talk to.

I don't interact much with my family members either.

We all do our own thing in our own room and don't even check on each other.

Where do I go during my free time?

What do I do?

Nowhere. Nothing.

I have nothing to do and I have nowhere to go.

I only have myself cause I keep thinking no one will understand me. Maybe we are all stressed on financial issues.

Afterall, we need money to keep going.

We don't get money if we don't work but we fall sick if we push ourself hard to work.

I wished I know how people can earn so much daily doing home based work.

How easy for some people to get profits from trading and so on.

Sometimes I wish people could just send me money.

Enough to take a short break for staycation, keep myself happy, pay my bills, etc.

That'll atleast ease me from all the stress I go through.

I can't even afford to get myself vitamins to keep myself healthy.

I don't want to go out and worry about how expensive things are.

I just want to go out and buy whatever catches my eye.

I'm not a big spender so it's rare for me to want something I see.

Most of the time it's just food.

I feel sad when I see people happily eating expensive foods.

Like sometimes I want what they're eating.

Steak, crabs, lobster, hotel buffet, etc.

But when I managed to save enough, I have no one to eat with so I end up giving it a sad miss.

Isn't it sad depressing?

We're all tired from working and everything else.

We just want to be happy and have an easy life.

We all deserve a good break.

But is there a way for it to happen?

How long are we going to live this way?

Can we make it through?