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Sometimes I feel like a burden,

Like I ask for too much.

Am I loved or am I tolerated?

This is a sensitive subject to touch.

I don’t know where to write from here,

To choose logic or emotion.

I better pick quick,

Or there will be an implosion.

My emotions tell me it’s all true,

All the negative things my mind say.

My logic knows it’s not,

But the battle has dampened the day.

My tears made it rain,

More like a storm.

I call it my cleanse.

A chance at reform.

The fire may have burned,

But from the ashes I rise.

A little negative energy will not cause my demise.

I stand strong in my decisions, standards, and boundaries.

I must continue to fight through,

The cloudiness around me.

We live in a world of unsecured madness,

I should walk in faith and not fear,

Stop jumping to rashness.

I am learning to let go of my fears.

I am improving everyday.

I am balanced, blessed, and consistent,

With some bumps in the way.

I am a magnet for miracles

And moving in the right direction.

My steps may seem small,

But it’s about progress, not perfection.

It is about progress, not perfection. Some of us, including myself, focus on what the journey and results should look like that we overlook what is actually important- the steps we need to take to get there. Some of those steps will be some of the ugliest looking steps you have ever seen, but then again they haven’t been updated. Update your steps so the journey isn’t so ugly anymore.

Update my steps so my journey isn’t so ugly anymore …

If there is an area that I haven’t touched or just merely patched without putting in the real work, it needs to be updated. Tape and glue will not work this time. Tear that ish up and put in some framework that will not crack. Wear and tear will always occur, it’s natural, but you prolong that process with healthy maintenance.

Still don’t get it?

It is time to stop talking the talk and start walking the walk. You know exactly what needs to be done, you are just too scared to do it. Start from scratch if you have to. Walk in faith, not fear. There is no reward without risk. There is no change without change.

Don’t overthink.

You know what to do.

The right choice is usually hard,

But try to follow through.

You got brains.

You have heart.

Legs, hands, and feet,

Also, a mouth very smart.

Use it to your advantage,

You know what to do.

Stop being scared.

Hurry up and follow through.

I end with this:

Love yourself first

Remember who you are

Don’t let anyone minimize you.

Go ahead, girl, raise that bar.