Keep going.

i’m tired of trying to be in the ‘right’ energy

i’m tired of trying to stay in the ‘better’ frame of mind

i’m exhausted by this journey

but i will triumph and come through to the other side

i’m at my lowest i’ve ever felt

i’m confused lost and cold

treading through the snow with no shoes on so the pains are felt through my entire being

wandering in the unseen, I pray I really don’t have keep up much longer, feel like i’m falling behind but I accept that i’m right on time

so many thoughts have been darker than ever, so many ‘promises’ have floated away, the shadow of a feather without seeing the actual thing

but I trust and keep going because I refuse to do anything else other than keep going and keep flowing in my knowing that everything will be okay,

I even feel like my own spirit family and beyond have been instructed to not talk to me much and I shouldn’t ask to much of them during this time, which has been harder but I must keep my faith

my heart hurts and my minds heavy my body been grieving and no relief yet

i’ve got through much and i’ll keep on going

smiles and laughter won’t be paused due to this time but my oh my i’m quietly dying right now, metaphorical of course but ouch it feels real, and it is so i’m honouring my emotions and energies, i’ve never really been here before so i’m reminding myself of how well I am doing without even knowing what i’m actually doing, so good for me, i’m proud of you Ruhani, I will never ever ever give up on you, on your beautiful soul, on your dreams desires and goals, never.

We will make it, we have to, i’m giving you no choice but to see this beautiful dream and destiny for you all unfold, it’s the truth that’s been told, everything is going to be okay, I love you deeply and dearly forever and always.

Keep going.