Kaleidoscope

I grew up with green

It surrounded me on all sides and towered over me, blanketing my sky

It infiltrated the concrete basketball court sprouting and forcing its way through

Green tangled around and insnared the old Ute at my friend's house

They were intertwined together beautifully

It filled me with wonder and each day I broke through the canopy and experienced relief

I longed for something great

Excitement and expectation filled my future

My greatest worry was that I would go into the world and discover that like everyone else I was ordinary

As I grew I moved into grey

It too surrounded and bared down upon me but here it felt daunting, lonely

It held everything, not a blanket but a smog

Seeping into and lazing upon every surface. 

Now I longed for ordinary

my world was grey but my mind was florescent yellow and red

It pulsated and kept me awake each night, dreading the day to come

I longed to rest and feared that my mind would never calm

Now there's blue

And I can breathe again

It borders my home and designates my horizons and I feel calm settling over me

It swells and flows with my heavy heart that still longs for green

My mind is restless still but is placated by new colours that clear my vision and focus my intentions

Now within in me begins an image

Different hues all taken from everyone I have ever met

They combine within my chest

A kaleidoscopic rainbow that reflects my heart

Always changing and shifting patterns as I move and grow

I can see it now, I get glimpses of it just as I did above the canopy of green

It is such a wonderful thing, to be sure with pure clarity of your soul.