Just Friends

Just Friends

I say I want to be ‘Just Friends’ because I am scared;

Scared of losing the friendship that we share;

Scared of losing the new memories we have the potential to make with each other,

I say it even though I yearn for so much more than just friendship from you but I

Know that I am not ready for all of the what-ifs; Not ready to find out what would happen if we had a disagreement that seemed to be irreconcilable

Because I am not ready to lose you; Not ready to let go of the feelings that I feel for you, or the hope for just another moment

I long for everything that we could be; I imagine the missions that we could accomplish together as one.

I picture a future with our children having your smile, and my eyes

I envision us lying in the grass at night, and counting the stars together; and analyzing the formation of the clouds in the sky

I dream of growing old together, and rocking in our rocking chairs on the porch while our grandchildren run and play in the distance.

Deep down my heart cries for the intimacy that could be.

But I’m scared...

So I say ‘Just Friends’