Just Breathing

I wake up in the morning

Take a deep breath in

I feel my chest expanding

Oxygen flowing within

Time to stand up and get going

My mind still over flowing

Can I get through another day?

I begin the never ending tasks that consume my life

I suppose I should feel purpose

But instead,

I'm Just Breathing

I walk around smiling, greeting, and laughing

I'm exhausted from playing pretend

There's pressure consuming my head

I am screaming inside

Just riding the tide

Can anyone hear me?

My internal screaming?

Can anyone see that I'm just breathing?

Does anyone know that my head is reeling?

I am living on repeat

Day after day, it's all the same

I'm an old VHS

My tape is worn down, no one is watching

But I keep on rewinding

Continue this "life"

I need a change, some inspiration

Where do I look when my surroundings are blocking creation?

I want to be better

I crave growth and optimism

But I fear the possible criticism

Will changing my thinking, my patterns, my ways

Make people say "it's all just a phase"

But right now

I'm just breathing

I'd do anything to live

Actually live

Not just exist with my days on repeat

Not just play a role in my life

But be the leading role

I am done just breathing, just to breath

I choose to change, and breath to lead