Just a Thought Before I Go
"And Scene"
Though trillions of thoughts traipse through my think tank,
the final thought I’ll ever think trounced in today.
It flickered and flashed my amygdala with memories.
Both fascinating and frustrating, it played back details both long forgotten and always remembered.
Realizing it was my final thought was terrifying and trippy.
It wasn’t just another thought.
It was my last thought.
A tribute in memoriam to my life now ending.
Dopamine-induced hallucinations just doing their job as divine doormen opening death’s doorway.
Both a flashback and a flash forward rapidly firing every memory while jettisoning me closer to nothingness.
Terrifying, yet thrilling, I had no choice but to watch my Lifetime movie.
Would the ending be sad or happy?
Sorry, that I cannot dispel.
You’ll have to find out for yourself.
Savor every thought, every emotion, everyday.
They are mere clips of a life made into a blockbuster film.
Its premier date is right before your film festival concludes.
Just a thought before I go…
Sent from my iPhone
About the Creator
Star Love Grey
An actress/singer/dancer who discovered a new creative passion because when theatres went dark, so did I. I tried writing and I lit back up. Let me light you up with my words, too.
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By sleepy drafts6 days ago in Longevity
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The way you write and the thoughts you bounced through and from, makes this fascinating to read. I especially like the many T words used in the first line. I like how you know so much about how dopamine induced hallucinations work. I like how you described them as like doormen. 'Just a thought before I go, sent from my iPhone' outstanding. I think this one is my favourite line. You held this poem together nicely. No jumping around and leaving loose ends. The flow was smooth and it left a lasting impression. Well done 🤗❤️👏🏾👌🏾