Jealousy
I am just a shadow,
Nothing but a shell.
I’m just the thing
Behind the scenes,
With not a friend to tell.
I am just the background noise;
The hushed part of the soul,
The silent underlying groan
That slowly takes its toll.
I am just the distant thought
Left lonely in your mind.
The abandoned piece
That knows you need
To leave her far behind.
—
I’m jealous of that part of me
That forgets who I really am.
—
The worst part is,
This jealousy,
Has actually been misplaced.
‘Cause that part of me
That failed to see the shadow
has been erased.
—
I am just a shadow
About the Creator
Day 4 of Quitting
If this is how sobriety feels, maybe it’s better to go through life a little buzzed… this, along with other hits like, I want to kill myself, I wish I was dead, and I’m going to throw myself off a bridge have been the only thoughts on rotation these past few days. I promise myself that if, in a month, I still feel like this (‘this’ meaning despondent, full of rage, and simultaneously numb) I can go back to smoking. Until mid-February though? Nicotine is off the table.
By sleepy drafts5 days ago in Longevity
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