It wasn't me

I wish I was the man you needed

but now I lay, almost defeated

with how much strength left, I don't know

and nothing gained but pain and woe

I find I'm staring off in space

and trying hard to not be here

I'm tire, but still run in place

knowing the end is never near

You wanted something that I'm not

and I can't fault what you desire

my soul is calmly growing hot

as I feel like my life's on fire

It shouldn't hurt this much I think

but each day one more day has come

and every night another drink

that tries but fails to keep me numb

I meant it when I wished you well

and slowly I'll climb from this hell

I understand what's done is done

I wish you'd known I'm not the one