It Speaks Words

I waited on a bench for you in the rain

Just so I could hear you call my name

Even if it was just an echo

That the droplets reverberated to me

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I knew you would never meet me there

But my heart told me it was meant to be

The aching started when you were near

So I wasn't surprised that the tears didn't stop

when you made your leave

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Freezing alone in my bed

Sweat beading from my pits

I asked my heart why she said I should wait for an empty promise

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She skipped

all the way down the sidewalk

I can finally feel

She said

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A needle poked in

and then poked out

in rhythmic pulsing beats

little glass beads woven throughout

glistening in the sun's heat

A driving force pushed me out

Of emotionless tired sleep

Dropping me from cold as ice

to fire running deep

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But why did you love him

I asked

the pressure of pain in my head

It pierced me with a seeping gash

look, finally, you bled

Upon the floor it trickled red

but tears did wash away

when I felt the scar that it left

Finally, I could breathe

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Can you just stop

I asked my love

trying to slow the bleed

but it just kept flowing out

like a promise that never leaves

it spiraled up, it spiraled down

it spun me 'round, it made no sound

I darn well couldn't speak

I just watched in utter shock

as the dam fell piece by piece

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Was there always this much abundance?

I asked

wondering where it came from

It was there, in a cage

buried beneath the sea

and you wouldn't let the waters move

my eyes said to me

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It trickled down

soft and slow

As I laid there trying to sleep

recounting all the times that I

couldn't take the heat

from wicked tongues and fingered chokes

every person that couldn't love me

why must they stab me cold

with words that haunt the air

when hatred seeps out their pores

the devil caught with his snare

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how do I love

in a place

that taught me so much hate

how could I be gentle with

those who tarnish me

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I breathe it in

Learning love

with each tender word

spilling off your tongue

Lips to my ear

arms wrapped tight

The first time I truly felt loves warm embrace

But you were never meant to stay

Just to help me remember

what love really means.

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I sat on a bench

with the sun beaming on my face

my eyes closed, lips curled up

A tear trickles down my cheek