Isolated in silence
deafening loneliness
The loneliness that isn’t so lonely
The feeling of empty when the glass is half full
The feeling of isolation when in a crowded room
The words I love you with no story behind it
Mother and father that are your sense of warmth when in a numbing room
Your best friends who are solid, feel like liquid slipping out of your hands
The feeling of crying when laughing
Feeling of a blue funk when the yellow rays of sun strike
Taking advantage when happiness creep through the door before the dreadful alarm
Makes poor happiness afraid to show its heart
The feeling of being a bird in a cage when having an ability to roam through the sky
Mom says just open your wings
Dad says just let it flow
The problem is not the flow but the cold
Hysterical is what you are
NO mom it’s not hysteria, it’s true sadness and loneliness that won’t leave me alone
It’s a lion waiting to be tamed
But lonely you are not!
No mother! Lonely I am not but loneliness I feel
I am full of love indeed that I am
But it feels like my heart has a hole where all love escapes
Even if it does not choose to go
The shine in my heart is turning to rust
13+ hours of sleep and still feel like I’m being deprived
Trying to hide myself under the sheets
Trying to cover the problems that are not problems but scenarios I have been made to believe
The joyful story of friends becomes a dreadful realization of the blankness in you like
The realization hitting you whilst sitting in a room with a therapist talking to you about what’s wrong
How are you feeling?
How was your week?
Are you okay?
No one cares
And I am found alone
You are not alone a fact that is
Someone cares
You are not alone
So why the emptiness?
Why the loud depressing music blasting from your room?
Why does being you mean being alone?
Why does being alone mean being loved
Why am I what I am now?
Why am I sad
But sad I should not be
Why did depression have to come knocking
But it did not leave, it stayed and is now an unwanted guest
For me and maybe for you
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