In Between

I think I finally understand myself

The reason why happiness and sadness

Live simultaneously inside me

At times one or the other fully consumes me

Never balanced, never truly present

I think I’ve figured it out

My melody, my malady

You see, I’m in between

On the constant move

Not fully here, not fully there

Half present, half gone

Now here is the thing I cannot say

Even to those who know me me the best

I’m stuck between life and death

Longing for each side but not being on either end

Would they understand the longing?

Would everything finally make sense?

Or like me would they judge me and want to shake me till I wake?

There is no right answer, only the truth

I’m stuck in between

Not fully here, not fully there

I have to force myself to be here, now!

Isn’t that where life is?

Split down the middle

Living halfway, in half truths, in half loves

Always pulling back

I must choose to live!

Leave the in between where no life is