Im done

I wish I didn't feel like this anymore

The feeling of the emptiness and crying

The wanting you constantly, Thinking your going to be there when I wake up but your not, its just more pillows and the kids screaming in the other room. Thinking your going to walk right back through that door, but deep down inside I know your not

I have moments when I think you may love me again. I let my heart take flight and soar thinking.....This is it, He's gonna realize its me, that's its always been me, sitting here silently loving him not matter how badly he treated me. Thinking this time he will put aside the computer, the joystick, the games console and see me...…

Thinking it will be our time again, realizing that its all in my head.

I have to be real with myself, you don't love me anymore, if you ever did Farewell friends is what we will ever be, you will be forever be consumed with work and video games, while our son grows to the man you never see.

Although my heart and soul will always burn for you, the pain of your own past will never fully heal as long as your head is stuck in video games and not seeing the world instead.