illusion.

a comfy blanket underneath

cosy jumper on me

latte in my hand

a cookie that you gave me to think

how wonderful this life is

when you have friends around

instillin’

your value in this world

and supportin’ family strings

overcomin’ any conflict

when nothin’ can break this pattern

and you can feel that you finally matter

to yourself and to them

by the fireplace in winter

by the campfire in summer

in the autumn forest

vivid with colours

like a patchwork quilt

and among spring flowers

in your best outfit

showin’ only your qualities

and never your flaws

will this time ever come?

I was waitin’ for it once

gingerly refinin' every detail

and it cracked like porcelain on tiles

leavin’ traces not worth rememberin’

yet I still dream that this time will return

and knock on my door once more

when the impetus of life

sweep me off my feet

into the dancefloor drummin’ with din

not heartrendin’ for a change

yet revitalisin’ all my steps

which I tripped over for years

on the way to another life

in a shape still unknown to me

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September 2022

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