If they only knew

If they only knew,

My deepest thoughts,

The things I don’t say

Because I know the pain it will cost

If they only knew

How much I cried

And not because I’m hurt

But because of so many hard goodbyes

If they only knew

How much I have grown

I have no more resentment

No more feelings left unknown

If they only knew

About all my crazy nights

Hiding my life, trying to do things right

If they only knew

Back then I was a mess

Trying to act normal In front of family and friends

If they only knew

The places I’ve seen

And the growth there has been

Following my dreams

If they only knew

About the silent years

When I hide from the world

Because of anxiety and fear

If they only knew

Maybe they would have called

To ask how I was

Instead of saying nothing at all.

If they only knew

How much it meant

On those hard days to just hear from a friend

If they only could

Let go of the past

They would find the rebirth they need

To start again

If they only could

Learn how to forgive

And all of our loved ones

Can stop with the awkwardness

It they only could

Give love one last chance

To use the new blueprints

Called “second chance’