If I'm Honest

I stay up late with my best friends

anxiety and regret

we go over and over and over again

the things I coulda woulda shoulda said

I stand here naked and shamed

vulnerable to everything

and you just see right past me

if i'm being honest, I can't be honest cause you don't even want me when I hide

if I'm being honest, I can't reach out because my heart has my arms tied

I want to be open - I want to be whole

but maybe he broke me too my core

if I'm being honest, for everyone's sake, I think I may be better off alone