If I had a boyfriend

If I had a boyfriend, my stomach would tighten

No longer my nose would be crooked

My nails stop breaking

My asthma is gone all because

I smelt his cologne.

My boyfriend would solve all my loneliness issues

I don't need friends if I have him

But if I have him, he would make me new friends

And then I would have new friends and new boyfriend

And some people that care.

His wonderful smile would fix both my parents

My mum would be nice to me and stop being mean

And he would make sure that my dad isn't being a dick

or punching the walls, or breaking the plates,

or calls me a useless disgrace.

It would really solve all of my problems

If my boyfriend could finally come

and my personality would become

Being his girlfriend and not this deep void that stares at me from every mirror I see, that eats me alive, makes me scream

at night from the pain that it's causing

Please help me, my boyfriend.