Icarus’s Revenge

it was a lovely house filled with short clips

Of innocent cartoon shows

But in the night,

it was flooded by the young animals that wore glow in dark paint

On their faces, bodies, and torn up clothes.

They danced around the house as if it was raining down flashing lights

Yet in a small dark corner, where the chaos didn’t hit

There was us, the total of two misfits

Yeah, we weren’t the only ones that thought of us that way.

when everything finally slowed down into a small ripple of sounds,

her teeth finally graze those lips

Soon she took my hand, she lead us to the doorway,

We were young and full of sin

I was somehow too drunk to understand.

Her movements brighten the room alone

she got close and I could smell her warm perfume on my clean skin.

As we leaned forward,

she reaches past my heart, grabbing towards my back

Clipping my wings and telling me “I won’t feel a thing “

I hold my tongue as I felt the weight on my shoulders finally give out.

Then she ran from everything, leaving me in a dark room,

in the ocean of people festering my house little by little

She looked me in the eyes expecting a chase, a hunt

A vengeful angel that she read about in bibles.

Instead, I let her go, I’ve given all I got, I turned away into the abyss

Because nothing was worth the pain,

I thought I made the right choice, that I didn't need it

Instead, I’ll spend most night awake, wide awake, and shaking,

Smoldering my face with cigarettes and cigars learning I'm beyond scarred

Showering in wine and champagne wishing I can feel the wind in my skin

Hoping the moonshine will take me away

Bringing me back to this small household again.

But no, instead

I became those silent cartoon show on my cracked television screen

I've become one of those wacky scenes where

I am swimming in the sea of strangers

Circling around me as they take bites

Making me spill out all of my bloody guts for all of them to see

It wasn’t till the alcohol finally settled in and sharpen my teeth

turned my eyes into a menacing mess

The ashes darken me to a shadow, a former image

I grab for the paint and in hopes to keep my color alive

But this is where I finally dip cocaine

to impress every one of those creatures in my ruined forsaken house,

for a single moment, I decided to strike that match,

to explode and destroy

everything on this god given earth.

i don’t care if i lose my mind anymore

Because it didn’t matter where i went

or where i go

i will always drown now for this

yet i’m not afraid to step in the fire

where i can’t see the light.